This post is coming at you later than usual because, instead of waking up early to go to the gym, I decided to sleep in a bit and get 8 hours of sleep.
Sleep does a body good, I’ve heard.
And if you’ve been reading this blog for a while, you know I’ve tried lots of things – from Weight Watchers (the first time, the second time, the third time), Whole 30, and multiple detoxes – to get this body looking good.
(Spoiler alert: They didn’t work).
Well, my confession for the day is that I’m putting a hold on all the THINGS.
Not because I don’t believe in the programs. (Well, I don’t always trust in detoxes. I think – for me specifically – they do more harm than good). But I actually believe Weight Watchers was working for me.
Still, I think I was more successful with it when I lived in California and had a friend to do the program with. (Remember? I’m a relationships girl. I have a better time meeting expectations when I know someone else is relying on me. It’s how I’m programmed and it’s not going to change).
I haven’t been very successful with it here. The meetings are on Mondays – in a local church – where I know absolutely nobody. I go in to the meeting with nobody, feel uninspired by the leader, and then come home and binge eat/drink all the things because I know I won’t have to weigh in for another week.
Not the healthiest way of approaching this thing.
So, I’m just going to call it quits.
Confession? Part of me feels guilty that I’ve stopped and started this program more times than I can remember. It’s also difficult to quit something when you KNOW it’s worked for you in the past.
But, I need to remind myself to get out of the past and focus on the present. What’s worked for me before may not work for me given my current circumstances.
So, I just have to let it go.
I know myself and I know that I am much more likely to meet outer expectations when someone is relying on me. So, lately, Ankur and I have been encouraging each other to get to the gym in the morning. And, when I start my day off with a sweat-sesh and a healthy breakfast, it seems to trickle down to the rest of the day. It encourages me to want to keep my snacking in check.
So, we’ll see how this goes.
I’m not going to shame myself for quitting the program. I’m not going to get upset with myself that this has been – and will always be – a struggle for me. I will remind myself that quitting the program doesn’t mean I’m throwing in the towel.
It just means I may need a different approach right now.
Questions of the Day:
- When was the last time you quit something? How did it make you feel?
- ‘FESS UP! Tell me a secret!