Yesterday, Riyu figured out how to use his little walker to walk across the living room.

Ishu also had a milestone moment yesterday. He discovered he could use a straw to drink straight from the watermelon. Ha.

Remember when this blog was about more than just my two children?

Sigh.

I love having these little memories documented. AND, I miss so much of the ‘TEACH’ part of EatTeachBlog.

I mean, I guess I’m still ‘teaching’ my own kids in a way.

But I had this moment yesterday – when I went to pick Ishu up from school – that I really, really missed being in a school setting. For the past two weeks, Ishu’s school campus is being used as a place for “in-residency workshops” for teachers from all over Chicago. They have lectures and observations. And, Ishu’s class is right next to their “Seminar Room” where they all congregate to sit through some professional development seminars.

And it made me miss my Rocketship years so hard.

That end-of-day exhaustion when we’d walk down the stairs into the computer lab, ready to sit through PD for the day. Where we jokingly ask, “Can this be an email because I just canNOT today?” Where we would do a quick Starbucks run before the meeting with other teachers because the afternoon pick-me-up was so needed.

I miss it, I miss it, I miss it.

I love raising my babies. I love the flexibility part of my job. But I don’t get the same feeling I get when I’m in person. Right there. Part of a school community. Run down by all the runners and craziness that happens in a single school day.

I miss it.

I am very grateful for the way my current job has served me since having Ishu.

Beyond grateful that I could stay home with my kids and have the flexibility to keep Ishu home from school when needed or hop on a plane to see family whenever we wanted.

But I think I need something different.

I don’t know what this means for next school year. I have thrown around the idea of doing something in-person but part time. I’m not sure yet and maybe I don’t have to figure it out TODAY.

But the physical ache I felt yesterday when peeking through the seminar window was a sign that there’s something in my life that is missing and I’d like to find my way back to it.

Okay, well how’s that for a life update? Ha.

Walkers and watermelon and whining.

Happy WEDNESDAY.