Therapy is My Peanut Butter

Because I love PB way more than Jam. And because Ankur is practicing his dad jokes.

I’m a broken record. I know.

But how can I not be when I log off after a therapy session each week and feel so much LIGHTER?

Last year, I gifted myself a subscription to BetterHelp and, included in that, is a weekly session with a licensed therapist.

You answer a few questions and then, based off your answers, they match you up with a therapist. And I don’t know if I just got extremely lucky, but MAN, I feel like I align SO MUCH with my therapist.

Every week, I think, “Okay, so maybe this’ll be the week I don’t have much going on.”

But she does such a great job digging and she finds a way to uncover more of you that you somehow – over the years – have covered or masked or tried to ignore.

One of the things she’s observed in me is that I operate from a “What can I get?” approach rather than a “What do I need?” standpoint.

I think I’ve always been like this. But it feels more pronounced as a mom.

What can I squeeze in during nap time? And then, when his nap is shit, I guess whatever I was planning to do gets thrown out the window.

What can I shovel into my mouth while he’s busy playing with something independently? And then, when a mess happens or if he needs me, I guess my meal is over.

So it’s no wonder that any free time I get, it never feels like enough.

Because I’m constantly operating in “What can I get?” mode and not actually stepping back, thinking about what I need, and then carving out time for that to happen.

Anyway, lots for me to reflect on and work on off the blog. But I thought I’d share these highlights because if you’re on the fence about therapy, I cannot scream it any louder: DO IT, DO IT, DO IT.

I wish it were accessible for everyone who wants it. And I’m so grateful that we can set aside some finances (and time!) for weekly sessions. I have benefitted from these sessions in more ways than I ever could have imagined.

And one more time for the people who don’t quite understand. You don’t need to be going through a breakup, a breakdown, or a breaking point to sign up for therapy. It is for EVERYONE. Therapy can be your peanut butter too.