Ankur and Ishu just left for school. 

I walked out to say bye to them and then walked back in and into the kitchen to begin the morning clean-up I typically do after dropping Ishu off. 

And I laughed out loud. 

Because our fridge was open. 

I mean, getting Ishu ready in the morning has always been a full-on sport. But add in a second kid and I don’t even know what the heck just happened over the past hour. 

Yesterday, we went to the park for a movie night. 

They were showing Hocus Pocus and all of us showed up with pizza and Jenn brought margaritas (because 70 degree weather in October calls for some margaritas!). 

But Ankur and I were both up and down with the kids for a variety of reasons. And Ishu was hangin’ by a thread emotionally. And sometimes I wonder if it’s better to not do the fun thing. 

Some days, I’m like, “SCREW ROUTINE! WE NEED TO DO THE FUN THINGS IN LIFE!” 

And other days, I’m like, “OKAY, NONE OF US can handle being out in public.” 

It was fine. Ishu had fun. I liked not having to cook dinner. 

But I felt so intensely tuned in to my child that I couldn’t really enjoy the things around me. 

It’s okay. 

Some days are gonna be like that. I know. 

Yesterday my kid had big, big feelings. 

And, as a result, I could feel myself having big big feelings too. Still feelin’ em. THANK GOD FOR THERAPY TODAY. 

Grateful for the moms in my life who step back or step in when needed. 

Hope you’re having a great morning 🙂