10 years ago, I had to stand in front of my students and attempt to explain to them what happened at Sandy Hook. I had to stand in front of them and reassure them that they would be safe. That I would protect them should the same situation happen at our school.

I didn’t know what to say then and I don’t know what to say now.

Because nothing has changed. I mean, minus the fact that we run through drills of this shit with our students to prepare them for such a thing. Putting the onus on a fucking 5-year old to handle this when we KNOW THAT WE HAVE THE ABILITY TO CHANGE THIS BUT WE ARE TOO DAMN SELFISH.

I keep visualizing the bedrooms of these innocent kids.

Full of books and toys, but empty beds.

Parents sitting in the corner of their rooms, wondering how the hell something like this could happen to them. We all think we’re the exception, but this can happen at any time. Because we, as a country, have made it so damn easy.

It hurts to think about sending my baby to school and not getting him back.

So many families have had to go through that unimaginable experience.

It’s not fucking fair.

And we do this cyclical dance over and over and over again.

But it’s been 10 years.

And nothing has changed.