So much is going on over here.

I think that’s typical of June. Wrapping up the school year can be a lot of work. Closing all the documents online. Filing the IEPs away and locking the drawers for the summer. Packing away all the curriculum, anchor charts, and resources. Not to mention the added emotion of saying goodbye to the kiddos.

But, this year is definitely a bit more challenging.

After three years of being with my RBM family, I’m saying goodbye. It is rough. The past few months in general have been a whirlwind of emotions. And, as we enter our last and final week with the kiddos, it’s hitting me hard.

A few days ago, I told one of my kiddos that I am not coming back. I knew I had to break it to him earlier than the others because I wanted him to process it while I was still around. I knew he’d have a million and five questions so I wanted to be sure he understood why I was leaving and that, just because we may not be close in proximity, doesn’t mean we won’t be in each other’s lives.

All. The. Tears. 

It’s definitely a rare, special experience to have had these kiddos for the past 3 years. And to have built relationships with these families for 3 years. It’s hard to just pass them off to somebody else. They aren’t a pile of IEPs that I’ve written and updated year after year. And they aren’t just a group of kids that I’ve played ‘case manager’ for over the past three years.

They are my kids.

My babies.

So, you can understand how I’ve been feeling all the feels as of late.

5 more days left with my little ones. I can’t even wrap my head around it.