Confession. I’ve always been a little chubby.

I like food. It’s delicious.

As an adult, it’s a little easier to recognize when I’m getting outta control. I’m more aware of my actions and I can pause and reflect and feel whether my clothes are a little too snug. I can then take action steps to fix it before I end up weighing 400 pounds. (Don’t get me wrong. It’s still something I struggle with all the time. But I have more awareness around it now).

As a kid, however, you don’t understand the ramifications of eating donut after donut after donut. You just see glazed goodness topped with colorful sprinkles and you dive right in.

When I was in high school, my mom tried to support me by signing me up for a fitness camp where we’d play sports and work out all day. And then, in the evenings, there were nutritionists that would teach us about the appropriate ways to approach food with the intention to lose weight.

It was called “Camp La Jolla.” And it was my first time at a sleep-away summer camp. It was an emotional experience for me. Not only did I leave the comfort of my parents, but, as a teenager, there were so many emotions that rose to the surface when discussing my weight and self-image.

Lucky for me, this process was made a lot easier with my twin by my side.

She was just a kid. A 90 pound kid. Who didn’t need to be there. She didn’t need to spend her summer months hanging out with her chubby sister, learning about portion sizes and weight loss.

But she did it. She, at a very young age, jumped on this emotional journey with me and never got off that train.

To this day, she is my support system, my motivation, my everything.

Confession. I couldn’t do this without her. Even as an adult. She reminds me that life is about balance. Indulging in the pizookies and then waking up at 5AM to do Kayla.

I am balanced because of her. I am a better version of myself because of her.

Happy birthday to my twin. My better half. My motivation. 

I love you more than words can describe.

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