Back to the grind.
I’m not going to lie. The anxiety was hitting me REAL hard on Sunday night and Monday morning. I had to consciously remind myself to take deep breaths in and out. It is not the easiest thing to transition back to an environment of always-on, always-going, always-learning when I spent the last few weeks recovering from just that.
Jen and I carpooled, which made Monday morning a little more manageable. And, thank goodness that she carries her Goddess Cards around with her because I desperately needed some guiding words to get me through the day.
I pulled Vesta. And, at first, I was a little perplexed. The goddesses were failing me. I had asked about WORK and Vesta is about HOME. How was Vesta going to guide me as I stressfully made my way back to the chaos and craziness?
But, after dropping Jen off and reflecting more on my card, I realized that Vesta was actually the perfect goddess to pull.
Yes, I am returning to an environment where I am always-on, always-going, always-learning. But, it is my life. It is my reality. It is my home. I am returning to my Rocketship family and, though it may come with some stress and anxiety (which is the norm for most tight-knit families), they are my home.
I’m certain that, over the next few weeks as we prepare for the kiddos to arrive for the 15-16 school year, I will have to remind myself to take deep breaths in and out. I will probably complain and bitch about trivial things. And I will find myself a little grumpy here and there.
But I will also be surrounded by a team of people that I love and adore. I will be preparing for our students and our families that give me the drive and motivation to wake up every morning. I will be doing what I love with a network that is aligned with what I believe in.
And that, essentially, is what a solid family looks like.
That is what a home looks like.
And I am so very happy to be returning to my home.